Simply Sad

So I'm sad for many reasons.  I'm sad because my program is ending, and my good friends and I will be parting ways.  I am sad because I still don't know what medical school I am going to choose, and I am no closer to making a decision.  I guess I feel like I'm in limbo.  I'm sad that my Seattle high has vanished, and I've returned to reality. I'm sad because I feel like I've regressed, like all the progress I've made from a insecure fourteen-year-old to a confident twenty-something year was for naught.  I'm sad because I feel like I'm going through adolescence...again!  I'm sad because I feel lonely sometimes, and even though its been almost a year, I still miss him.  I'm sad that his absence still makes me sad. I'm sad because I've lost faith... sigh.

Hopefully I'll cheer up soon, and get out of this funk and count my blessings!!!  Until then, here's a pic of me, my sisterlocks, and three my besties:

Please click on the picture to see a clearer pic of the locs!!! (Just realized these pics were taken at the 2 month mark :-))

Sense, re-sense, and multisensical wonders

I went to Seattle confused, unenthusiastic, unmotivated, and unhappy.  I left Seattle inspired, at peace with myself, invigorated, and probably even more confused, lol.  I guess I learned that (1) I'm only 23 and I have a whole exciting life ahead (2) I WANT to be a doctor, and I think I'll be a darn good one too (3) No one but me defines my happiness (4) I do have the ability to love again, but I must never let "love" make me forget numbers 1-3.

How'd I learn all this?  Well, for one escaping the environment that made me feel unmotivated and unenthusiastic helped.  Being at a conference surrounded by brilliant leaders in medicine was inspirational.  Having a roommate with an exceptional life story helped put my own life in perspective.  And experiencing my first real crush post-ex bf was... I can't put it into words.  According to a new friend, in Seattle I experienced, "sense, re-sense, and multisensical wonders."

But you guys care about sisterlocks! So here are some pics:

P.S. Welcome new subscribers!!! :-)