Simply Sad

So I'm sad for many reasons.  I'm sad because my program is ending, and my good friends and I will be parting ways.  I am sad because I still don't know what medical school I am going to choose, and I am no closer to making a decision.  I guess I feel like I'm in limbo.  I'm sad that my Seattle high has vanished, and I've returned to reality. I'm sad because I feel like I've regressed, like all the progress I've made from a insecure fourteen-year-old to a confident twenty-something year was for naught.  I'm sad because I feel like I'm going through adolescence...again!  I'm sad because I feel lonely sometimes, and even though its been almost a year, I still miss him.  I'm sad that his absence still makes me sad. I'm sad because I've lost faith... sigh.

Hopefully I'll cheer up soon, and get out of this funk and count my blessings!!!  Until then, here's a pic of me, my sisterlocks, and three my besties:

Please click on the picture to see a clearer pic of the locs!!! (Just realized these pics were taken at the 2 month mark :-))

Sense, re-sense, and multisensical wonders

I went to Seattle confused, unenthusiastic, unmotivated, and unhappy.  I left Seattle inspired, at peace with myself, invigorated, and probably even more confused, lol.  I guess I learned that (1) I'm only 23 and I have a whole exciting life ahead (2) I WANT to be a doctor, and I think I'll be a darn good one too (3) No one but me defines my happiness (4) I do have the ability to love again, but I must never let "love" make me forget numbers 1-3.

How'd I learn all this?  Well, for one escaping the environment that made me feel unmotivated and unenthusiastic helped.  Being at a conference surrounded by brilliant leaders in medicine was inspirational.  Having a roommate with an exceptional life story helped put my own life in perspective.  And experiencing my first real crush post-ex bf was... I can't put it into words.  According to a new friend, in Seattle I experienced, "sense, re-sense, and multisensical wonders."

But you guys care about sisterlocks! So here are some pics:

P.S. Welcome new subscribers!!! :-)

Sisterlocks, waitlists, and other meandering thoughts

Hello all!!!  Thanks for the two new suscribers! It was getting kinda lonely blogging to my one follower (who happens to be my ex and probably forgot that he is even following this blog, lol).    So it was my original intent to blog more often, but the problem is, my life is so boring that I don't do anything that requires me to take pretty dolled up pictures of my locks.  But this past weekend I finally went out with my sis and her friends and I have pics of my sisterlocks 1 month in... yay!!!

So I had my hair re-tightened about 1.5 weeks before these pics were taken.  I had them re-tightened so soon because I had my followup mini re-tightening session:

Other than that I have some major decisions to make over the next few months.  I have to choose which med school to go to!  I have to see if I can get into one of these schools on which I have been placed on the waitlist ... I have to find myself before my new journey begins!!!!  So much to do so little time :-)

My Sisterlocks Debut

Hello all!  My sisterlocks were born last Thursday morning at 2:00 a.m.  After 16 hours of marvelous work done by my consultant, I am officially apart of the network of sisterlocked sistahs.  I must say I love them!!! They are so, "me".  I just wake up, fluff up my hair, and its all set!  The only negative that I've experienced this week is dry itchy scalp, which I hope will go away once my scalp gets used to producing its own oils.  I am willing myself not to put any products in my hair.

Well enough talk! Here are the pics:

ONE MORE WEEK!!!

The countdown begins! Only one more week until my sisterlock installation! I'm excited and nervous! I can't wait to see how it looks.  I promise to post pics as soon as my head is complete!!!

Almost One Year Later... and I'm taking the plunge!

A lot has happened in the last year.  I fell in love.  I fell out of love.  I SWORE I didn't wouldn't get in to a medical school. I was accepted to a top-twenty medical institution.  I was sooo down. I was on cloud nine.  I cut off all my hair, then grew it all out, just to texturize it and cut it off again.  Oh yeah, I had multiple sets of braids, twists, cornrows in between.

BUT GUESS WHAT!?! I set up my installation day on 2/16/11. Its official.  I'm gonna get locked.  But I'm super scared.  I don't know what my hair is going to look like!!  I've been scouring the internet for hours upon hours to find a sisterlocked sistah with my exact hair texture: very very very very (I EMPHASIZE VERY) tightly coiled 4a hair that is very dense... then I realized, no one is going to have the same exact hair like me... only my blood sisters come close. (And pictures can also be so deceiving...) So I guess I'll have to wait two weeks and see :-).

Until then, look at some pics of my nhappy locks until I have more interesting sisterlocked pics to show you:

Pic of my tight tight tight coils

Right before I texturized my hair in 8/2010.  I actually eventually cut all this off after my texturizer grew out a bit.

 

My hair today!!!  I know its extra deceiving cuz it looks extra shiny.

Actually, this is how I really wear my hair in traditional starter locks cuz I'm too lazy to even comb my hair on a daily basis.

The BC (Big Chop)

Hello  all!

I decided to start this one of many hair blogs because I wanted to document a young woman’s journey to becoming all-natural.   “Why do you want to go all natural?” you may ask.  Well, I had been relaxing my hair for about a year and a half by rocking a Rihanna-influenced short do that many of us sistahs have been wearing recently.  Everything had been going well, and I really loved it.  It was trendy and cute.  It gave me an edge but I still had enough hair to retain my femininity.  However, on New Years Eve 2009 I went in to the salon for a touch-up, and the result was badly burning parts of my hairline.  At this point, it was safe to say that I was finished with relaxers.

To start the transition process, I got a full-head weave.  After about a month, I took out the weave due to extreme itchiness.   Along with the weave, about a handful of my relaxed hair came out!  If you don’t believe me, look at the pics.  At this point, there was no turning back.  I wanted to use a half wig to continue the transition process, but there was too much damage to do even this.  So the next day I went to my lovely hairdresser and asked her to cut off all of my hair.  I was sweating bullets as I sat in her chair.  As my hairdresser buzzed my hair off, everyone in the salon was unabashedly looking at me thinking, “She must be crazy! Why is she shaving her whole head off?”  Luckily I had my boyfriend there to tell me when she was done, “You look beautiful.”  I was just happy that my head wasn’t shaped funny.  I thought I would have a peanut head.

So now what’s my plan?  To grow my hair out to get Sisterlocks ™!  I have been admiring them for a while now, and I can’t wait to join the community of beautifully locked black women!

Now that I am natural, what products do I use?  What should my hair regimen be? Help!!!!  All comments are highly appreciated.